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While 2017 was completely abuzz with work, family gatherings and my daughter growing up, I didn't exactly float through happy into 2018. A death in the family, visa troubles and vacuum in work marred the last few days of 2017. I know it sounds stupid but as per astrology these are the last few tough days and post January 14, I and my family will have reason to cheer. (I will let you know if this was true!) Meanwhile I am killing time in innovative ways and trying to reason out my life's purpose all over again. When nothing is there to do, I have several ideas popping up like hopeful soap bubbles. But most of them burst on hitting the possibility of reality. I know I have to pick one of these and work on it to make it happen, to make myself happen in 2018. One thought that makes me happy is whatever I do pick now will be something I really mean to do and would be something I have earned for myself. For the first time in life, things are not coming to me easily and so I can fe...

Same time last year, the reflective last few hours of 2015, I had decided that in 2016 I will take out time to do few things out of routine, out of my general commitments to family and work. I will do this to enrich myself with new knowledge, to gain new experiences and to continue to discover myself even as I am turning boringly old in the 30's club.  I opened an unused Diary and jotted down three headings in three pages: Five new books, Five new places, Five new things to do. It may seem as a rather simple target to set for few, but once you are on a vicious homemaker-mother-employee cycle, this simple target seems almost impossible to accomplish. So was I able to accomplish what I set to achieve? Let me start with the books 📖. To be honest, I don't get more than 10 minutes a day to give to a book and I get these 10 minutes when I am at the loo. This has become my secret 'me' time where I can loose myself (pun intended) in a book, in a story, in a characte...

In the one year nine months i spent knowing Swati, i learnt a lot. Enough things about life, that i wished i had learnt long back. Enough to look at life in the eye. We are completely different people. Swati will react. Instinctively. She'll immediately show if she she is happy, sad, jealous or anything. I won't. I would show a complacency in any situation. No one would know how sad, how happy, how grateful i am. They would probably just know that i am happy, sad or grateful ! She taught me to quantify my feelings.. to express my feelings clearly to people who matter. I think i seriously lost out on a lot of things because of my complacency. I lost out on people's reactions, affection, friendship, love towards me. I should have expressed myself, loud and clear.. that makes things simpler !! Swati enjoys when she enjoys. She lives life completely. I tried doing this as well and i felt so much lighter and happier! She taught me to 'connect' to people. Look at the thin...