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After a gap of two years, I am back in a classroom. I have been a terrible student most of my life (while in India). A classroom for me has been a place where usually i don't really know what's happening. Due to unavoidable circumstances (including day dreaming, imaginative choreography, chit chatting, flirting etc) I usually lose touch of what is happening in the class and then cause i anyway don't know what is happening, I make use of the invaluable time by continuing my valuable activities. i always pitied the fate of my lecturer though and by the semester end, my own !! But in the US (where i study now ) I cannot literally AFFORD to do any of the above. So, yeah i pay attention ! I realized it's not all that bad afterall . My paying attention phase had been going on well, until i faltered for just a few moments... My prof was explaining some funda of H2- O2 explosion limits. Apparently, if a mixture of H2 and O2 were in a room at 1 atmospheric pressure and 70 deg F

In the one year nine months i spent knowing Swati, i learnt a lot. Enough things about life, that i wished i had learnt long back. Enough to look at life in the eye. We are completely different people. Swati will react. Instinctively. She'll immediately show if she she is happy, sad, jealous or anything. I won't. I would show a complacency in any situation. No one would know how sad, how happy, how grateful i am. They would probably just know that i am happy, sad or grateful ! She taught me to quantify my feelings.. to express my feelings clearly to people who matter. I think i seriously lost out on a lot of things because of my complacency. I lost out on people's reactions, affection, friendship, love towards me. I should have expressed myself, loud and clear.. that makes things simpler !! Swati enjoys when she enjoys. She lives life completely. I tried doing this as well and i felt so much lighter and happier! She taught me to 'connect' to people. Look at the thin